i need to escape the bubble that my brain naturally puts me in - a cage of the desire to feel good about myself and about my art. i have to open myself up for critique and opinion to help me grow. it is a thing that feels dangerous, as if it was something threatening my existence, but it is a necessary step. in order to get help, i must also accept that i am going to be judged and criticised, and that is okay. i need to allow that. i need to let the negativity back in, and endure it. because i can not constantly run away from it. i can not be living in an illusion of being amazing, because i am not - at least at this point of my life.