i am looking at a shadow that dances, noticing its (or more like hers) indecisiveness, size, dynamics and a terrifying primal power that can potentially wipe out the whole human kind… or just me, but the world will end. and i do not know how to dance. what are the rules? how to preserve myself? do i need to preserve myself? is this the beginning of anothe personality crisis?
i am tired, so tired all the time. it is hard to be constantly present, so i run away into delusional world

i dont kno what to do
what is happening? what am i feeling? what should i concentrate on? what are my values and how to live by them?