i thought of a name for whatever is happening to me during my residence in the motherland - a shock therapy "here's a reminder why you left". it was probably much needed since my last year in prague was quite miserable, or at least i thought so. i must've totally forgotten what's the definition of "ennui" (didn't really know it - it means misery and boredom), and it can be, and most likely will be, worse.

i am uncovering new layers of being a human. adopting new concepts and asking questions. the transformation is never finished.