oh god please let it work out, let my life work out, please help me strike out of my bubble of fear and misery and an illusion of comfort.
all i want is to be healthy and to do the things i love the most - creating, exploring, meeting new interesting people and living, absorbing every joyous thing i can come around. i got so lonely i stopped believing there are people that fit me, or anyone who'd find me interesting, or anyone who could appreciate what i do. and i know it isn't true, considering the amount of people on this earth.
i do really want to give up sometimes, but the good thing is that i have no luxury of giving up. it is just not an option.