lewis

hey bablouska
are you okay? i want to know if you are still smoking, if you found what to do and if you know who you are. do you drink? do you eat meat? where are you? do you have money? do you fuck someone? do you still want me from time to time?

i have vegan days now (read: am a vegan), i am panicking, i have no friends except for martin and andy. i wish i could tell you how amazing i am doing without you, but it wouldn't be true. i've got no money at all, quit school and having a bit of a hard time, but i feel i'm on the right way.

i want you to know that even though i don't want you with my mind, i still want you with my heart. and it's okay that i do, and i know you give zero fucks now, which is okay as well. i am just lonely and i think about you a lot. i've still got feelings for you baby