i was and am good enough. there's nothing bad in wanting more, and i did. i have to be gentle with myself. i'm in no rush to get over him. i loved him and it's okay to feel sad, and it's okay to miss him, and it's normal to want to put things back together as they were - but my own heart, my own feelings, my own well-being is more important.
i have got to forgive myself for things i said or did. i din't do it wrong, i did it the way i felt at the time. and i have to forgive him. he didn't want to hurt me. he never meant to do any harm, it just so happened that i was hurt by his actions, just because of who i am and what i wanted from him.
i have to forgive him for not being committed to me, i have to forgive him for cheating (if there was any), i need to forgive him for not loving me the way i wanted him to love me.
i want to let it all go. i want to stop being angry at him and at myself, because no matter what i say to others, i am.
i also need to relax and stop desperately trying to make myself feel awesome, it's been so little time after he disappeared from my life.
i want to let go of all illusions and hopes, i want to let myself go.
i need to stop being hard on myself.