this is a gift.
i am finally free. free of constant doubts whether we are good for each other… because we are not. i am free to choose whatever i like and do whatever i want. i don't have to hear "calm down", "you are delusional", "this is all in your head". it's not. he showed how much he cares right now.
and now i am free to become someone i love, and not someone he loves. this wasn't love between us. my definition of love was wrong. i don't love him. i loved the idea of him and i loved the idea of us.
and now it's time for me to love the idea of me.