after watching a ted talk about being suspicious of storytelling, i've found a very accurate and beautiful metaphor for my life. in the video, he described how he asked strangers "what is your life" and how 50 percent of the responsess were "a journey" (and it's not really, it's more like a mess).

and as for now, my life is an unsuccessful attempt to find a canvas and paints in a very messy attic.