another rejection! oh boy do i fucking love those. i have decided to allow myself to cry and feel sorry for myself. for two days, i can whine and throw a pity party. oh you fuckers, i will fucking show you what i'm fucking capable of. not good enough? well, thanks for the motivation.

this makes me feel so sad that i haven't done this earlier. to be fair though, back then i would probably be unable to face the rejection. a year ago that would devastate me. now i cry, eat an ice cream and keep going. oh give me more of this, please do, i am so tired of being ignored. throw garbage at me, tell me i'm a shit artist, tell me my works are bad, tell me how bad exactly. i can't remain in this isolation. i need feedback to get stronger, better, brighter.