my fairy tales keep crumbling down in my hands. i look into the future and i am terrified. i look at myself and i am terrified. who am i? i seek answers everywhere, and there aren't any. do i even know the question? am i asking the right things?

what am i doing wrong and why the hell is it all the same, why does nothing change, why am i fighting same fights all over again?
i doubt everything. this is the longest fall ever. the bottom is not even close. there is no ground under my feet. i don't know what i am doing.