very very overwhelmed. why is there so much in this world? even knowing i want to be doing art is so complicated, there are so many options, so many different things to do, and i am just scared, and i don't want to work a shitty job again but everything requires effort, so much effort, and i don't mind effort, but do i have time? i mean what if i just put a lot of effort and it's all wrong? oh i recognise this, i have had questions like that, same ones, but different level.
but there is only so much i can do now… but also i need to know what am i moving towards to, what do i want to create, and i don't know, everything is so confusing, everything is so much and all i can is just create stupid tiny pictures, and i know that potentially i can do more and better, but what do i want? what is it gonna be? uuugggghhhhhh
my mind is so hectic today i don't know what to do and how to do it