is there acceptance behind success?
acceptance of being average, or even bad, acceptance of a possible lack of a good outcome, acceptance of being rejected and acceptance of failures. should i surrender and stop trying to convince myself that i am somehow special? i am not, but no one is.

i found myself shallow and superficial, with suvere deficiency of tolerance and common sense. whatever draws our intense reaction in others, is usually our projection of something we are fighting with ourselves, or a reflection of our fears - basically, if you can't relate to it, you feel nothing.
i am very hypocritical, and no matter how hard i tried this summer, i am still very insecure. is the secret in dropping it, just letting it go? the harder i try, the worse it gets.