dear Lewis,

i am sorry.
i just want you to know that i was wrong to blame you for anything. i was naive enough to believe that we had a future. i couldn't be someone you could be committed to. it's not fair on you to ask you for something you can't give. i was stupid and i built myself a world in my head that had nothing to do with the reality. i can't be angry at you for not loving me enough, i can't make you be devoted to me, and it's very selfish of me to even desire to. the only thing you kept doing wrong was that you were lying to yourself and to me, and you kept forgetting to do something you promised.
i never told you, but the thing i wanted the most for you was to find something you love, doing or being, and it would've been enough for me that you have a purpose, even if i am not in the picture. i am not sure what happened that i became so crazy after. i am not sure why i was holding on to you so desperately, even knowing that you can't rely on other people to make you happy.
i am not blaming myself either, i know why i feel the way i do and why i was behaving this way. you are right, it is my problem. but a different one. and if you really loved me, you would want to help me sort it out. but you don't, and it's okay. i tried t be angry at you, because it would be easier if i was, but i can't.
i am sorry i could never be perfect for you. thank you for everything we had together, it was truly amazing. i will miss you. but it is for the best. we were holding each other back. forgive me if i ever hurt you.

i sincerely hope you get the answers and find what you are looking for. and i wish that you find someone who will fit and who will be able to make you happy.

love
Elena